Last night as I lay in bed with my husband and we were falling asleep I asked him to tell me his dreams. As in what he envisions for the future. As he began speaking of his dream I started adding to it, and we wove this beautiful image together. And as we got sleepier, and our consciousness began to shift, the images we painted with our words came to life in my mind.
This was very much on my mind when I woke this morning. I realized that the size of my dreams is limited by my experience and my own limiting beliefs. My dreams have gotten larger and larger since I had the dream that called me back to art. But I know they are limited still because when I see or hear something fantastic I still doubt that it could possibly come true for me.
Listening to Jenny Mazer speaking on this topic the other day reinforced the importance of really blowing the top off our dream limitations. So, this morning as I opened my joural to scribble, I asked what is my Biggest of Biggest Dream? The answer was the image below. Actually this is the painting I made today based on the soul scribble, but you get the picture ;0)
I looked up three fish and the trinity and Christianity figured high on the list of what it means. But the image predates Christianity, and may be tied to the Goddess trinity of the maiden, mother, and crone. This all left me a bit fuzzy on meaning so I picked up my pencil and started writing stream of consciousness about the image to see what came up. And WOW, isn’t it amazing when you have an ah-ha about something…like the information just pours in! The ah-ha I had was this:
The three fish represent the universal mind that we are all part of, the body I am incarnated into in this lifetime, and my infinite soul. As I thought about at the image I sketched it again and again, I felt FLOW, I saw one thing leading to another, one aspect clearing the way for the next, sharing knoweldge and communicating, communing. And then I realized that my biggest of biggest dream is to be in this flow, to be connected and communing MIND BODY and SOUL. It is a space that is playful and imaginative and infinite and where, in my biggest of biggest dreams, I reside.
Looking at my scribble I also noticed that my mind and soul were doing well (blue and green fish), mostly holding formation, but that my body, the golden fish, was not sticking to the plan, was not staying in line with the others. It’s like it gets some information, some communion and then breaks formation to reach out, communicate with the world, make a video, etc. And then it (Larissa) has to find its way back to that flow and connection again. See how the head is not even in the picture? It is like I am saying “Hey, can you just send me info through my tail while I can keep my attention over here?” And the mind and soul are looking kind of compassionately concerned, a little confused, like grandparents who find the antics of their grandchild amusing but bewildering…“Where did she go? Wasn’t she just right here with us?” They do their best to keep connected and communicating, but the chain is incomplete. So I have just got to put my head back in line and pay attention so that the trinity can function as it should and I experience unity and flow not just now and then, but always.
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Watch me paint right over a beachscape to create the Soul Path Fish Triquetra!
This was painting 2 of 13 in a series where I am painting one painting on top of the next. Crazy right? I am learning about detatchment.