Emergence — Birth of an Artist
My journey as an artist began in August 2016, though the truth is—it had been waiting within me from the start. I had reached a point in my life where everything I thought defined me was falling away: the career in graphic design, the daily routines, the idea of who I was “supposed” to be. My children were growing up, and for the first time, there was space—a rare, open space—to hear myself.
I realized that until then, fear had been my guide. Fear of failure, fear of the unknown, fear of stepping outside what seemed possible. And I knew, deeply, I could not continue living that way. So I spoke words aloud that would change everything:
“I will not make any major changes or decisions until I am unified.”
It was a promise—to myself, to life, to the universe. And though I didn’t yet understand the full meaning, something shifted. Something began to move.
For six months, I watched. I waited. I listened. I let go. I shed tears I didn’t know i had within me. Then one morning, I awoke from a dream—vivid, vibrant, impossible to ignore. It showed me the path with absolute clarity: through painting, I could heal. I could see beyond the ordinary. I could step into what was waiting for me.
I didn’t understand the depth of the message at the time. I only knew I had to follow it. That very day, I opened my long-forgotten art supplies and began to sketch. And then, when pencil touched paper...
Time stopped.
The fear, the doubt, the “what ifs” dissolved. I was utterly present. Completely alive. The woman I had been—the woman shaped by fear and expectation—fell away. Suspended in that stillness, I realized that creation was my path to peace. Not through mantras or meditation, but through the flow of energy from within, through the act of bringing something into form.
Since that day, my journey has continued to unfold. I’ve been clearing patterns, shedding what no longer serves, and letting my art become a channel for love, for presence, for the infinite spark of creation that lives in all of us. My goal is simple: to create work that supports each of us in embodying our full potential.
As songwriter Pam Daugherty said, “We know the world is changing, we know we’re changing, too.” My art is part of that change. My art is my offering. My art is me, becoming fully alive.
