Awakening to my Soul Path
In August of 2016 I recognized that fear was running my life. My soul and intuition were a distant whisper. Intellect, reason, my left brain, had been in the driver’s seat for years and the results were not good.
The spark that ignited this introspection was the departure of my 16-year-oldson for college. He had decided to go to early college and this shook my world. Feeling an accute need to discover what as next in my life, and what my purpose was, I realized that I could not figure it out through reason and logic. That would just bring me right back where I started once the newness of whatever change I chose had worn off. I felt that needed to learn to listent to the voice within, the intuition that I had ignored for many, many years. So I made a pledge not to make any major decisions until I was unified, and I set about listening, watching, and waiting for my soul to speak.
And then the work began. And it was work! When you have ignored your intuition for 40+ years, it is both hard to hear it, and even harder to trust it! I started meditation too, which was not easy for me! I rarely got beyond the wall of thought and found it very discouraging. I looked very truthfully at my life and asked myself how I felt about it, and how I wanted it to be different. This involved a fair amount of tears. It is hard letting go of what you have, even when it is not a good fit any more.
Then, in January 2017, I had a dream that called me to awaken my artistic self. It showed me art was a pathway to knowing and healing myself, and creating my future. So, that day I pulled out my neglected art supplies and, to dust off my skills, I started sketching my cat. And immediately I discovered that the wall of thought was gone. Poof. Just like that, no mantra needed, no deep breathing. Just me and a pencil and paper. So I kept drawing every day!
At an art retreat with some friends in February, creativity rushed in, filling me with inspiration. I was up for hours working on my art project. At the same retreat, I also discovered my passion for sharing what I was learning, and creating in community.
As the winter turned to spring, my desire to create this thing was immense. It consumed me and at times was almost overwhelming. I was reading a ton of books (see my favorites). I knew that creating it, bringing this dream into being, would take strength and resolve I had never tapped into before. The intensity of my desire was powerful and painful at once. It often brought me to tears. I recall talking with family and friends about it. "Well" they said, with the kindest of intentions, "even if it doesn't work out, you will always have your art."
But the thought of NOT creating this thing was more painful than any fear I had about doing it. This feeling, this desire, was intoxicating. And in order to help make it happen, I decided to call in some powerful energy. An energy that would make me unstoppable, would push me through all barriers I encountered along the way. And what better energy to help me with this than the elephant? And not just any elephant, I knew this had to be a BIG elelphant. As big as my dream!
So “Unstoppable” (pictured here) was born, a near 7' tall quilted elephant. You can read all about how it came into being here. This was the first piece of art I made with intention. It was a meditation on all that I wanted to create with Soul Path Art, and not letting anything stop me.
Over the course of 2017 my new business came into clearer focus. In July the universe gave me another nudge, taking my main graphic design client from me. I realized it was time to get my butt in gear and get out there! My first official appearance in public was at the Brunswick Outdoor Art Festival on August 19th, 2017.
Soul Path Art was born. Its mission, to help you boldly go where only you can go! To dive into yourself, to connect completely with your soul’s wisdom and guidance, and courageously share your magic and spark. I do this because when one of us blooms, when one of us steps into the fullness of our potential, facing the fears, the self-doubts, the limiting beliefs that have weighed us down and stopped us in the past, the effect of this transformation is beyond anything you can calculate, rippling out into the world creating beautiful things.
So be brave. Take heart. The journey may seem scary. The path may be unfamiliar. But it is yours. It is unique to you. And only you have the answers. Only you can find the way. Through intention, through dreaming, through imagining, and through creativity you can be who you came here to be!
*Curious about the art in the photo of me at the top of this post? Read the story here.
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